life realli sux to the core!!! y do i hav to hav this kind of life? every bad thing seems to knock into me. life change totalli since my dad's death. can say is frm a total happiness to a whole load of junks. tried hard, super hard to make myself happy. but there r idiots who makes it difficult. rite frm my family itself to anyone frm sch. family probs, i neither can i deny it nor can i escape frm it in long term... i onli can drag it... goes to sch, face the com, crap wif frens, even gg maple, r juz parts n parcels of me trying to escape frm all probs tt i could... but even all these stuff gives me probs sometimes... is it true tt an everlasting happiness can nv achieve??? no everlasting escapes??? no everlasting frenship??? this is juz so unfair. miseries can be everlasting, y cant happiness be everlasting? can i ever be happy after my dad's death??? till now, there is no ans. happiness is always there, but its super hard to catch it. even u caught one, its gone within seconds. w/o the happiness in ur hands, miseries will invade into u... will there be someone out there, willing to catch the happiness for me forever? till now, i c no one...