realise sth tt made me quite uncomfortable todae. tot i would take it lightly but tt scene juz keep on flashing in my mind.

juz notice tt how lonely i am nowadays. im some person tt is neither here nor there now. try to be with others but yet, thinking of them. all my luafters r so empty w/o them. most of the time, im juz luafing at how stupid i am to think i hav it when i dun hav them. try to work as much as i can so tt my mind is occupied, but still, those memories fought their way n linger into my mind. try to pretend nth much had happened, but still, they so happen tt there is no turning back.

rmbing the goods r always a light-heartening moment.
b4 pri sch: hav a whole bunch of frens tt always play tgt while our mums r playing mahjong. always playing family game wif them as we can form a big family among us. evening time, when dad reach home, he will on sesame street for me to watch, then dinner, h/w and spellings. i always hav them done quickly as dad will always bring me to somewhere when i did finsih them, either playground or buying ice-cream n/or snacks. if its realli early, he will bring me to my cousin house or go shopping. i really missed those days. sometimes im wondering, wat if the fall had nv happen? or wat if my uncles had send him str to the hospitals? wat kind of life will i be leading now? i realli cannot imagine, surely less independent but much less tougher.
pri sch: the same whole bunch of frens all went into the same sch, met more frens which joined us. but as time goes by, each of us, one by one, left our so called childhood neighbourhood. in the end its my turn, but i still study there. oya, i rmbed the most grand malay wedding i ever came across. fandi ahmad's (i dunno how to spell his name) wedding, he actually invited the whole block of ppl as his parents' hse is there. the park in front of the block was filled wif ppl tt day. so cool la. wats more, rmbing those upper pri days when we smuggled food n magazines into class but yet the teachers hav no comments in it as we always produce wat they want on time.
sec sch: join some sch of a totalli new place, no longer lingering in yishun. noe nobody at all. wish to transfer but cant. wats more, someone wif a lower PSLE score can go to the sch i wanted but nt me. but nv regretted it. as time goes, came to noe more ppl, more teachers n got more involved. i began to fall deep love wif it. rmb those tiny things tt we do while complaining to the teachers. but how i wish to do them now in tt now empty building. I LOVE U, PEIRCE! u will always be the most memorable learning place i had gone thru.
poly: came to where i am now ard 2 yrs ago. lonely n noe no one. felt a bit stupid as i carried my lappy to sch tt day when we dun even nd anything. life is juz like a roller coaster here. when u r happy, everything seems so rite. when u r down, everything seems to be turning away frm u.