been avoiding for the past week. y? scared? dunno...
if scared, y? dunno... maybe cant giv her a gd ans.

questions tt was asked infinite times
questions tt i had only ONE answer to them always
but this answer had been always in my heart only
nv had i told her the answer
i'm afraid tt my answer is not sincere enough
since i can only say 'I'll try' rather than 'I promise'
i had lost my liability to say 'I promise' to her
since i had broken my promise to her before

due to my stupid act,
i lost this friend and broke my promise
the promise that we will be friends always

she had asked,
'Do you hate me?'
in normal circumstances, it will be a 'Yes'
but hatred had gone days after the act
i only envy her, cos she has everything that i dun

everytime when we talk,
i always have the urge to tell her
'I'm sorry. Can we be friends again?'
but it always stuck right up my throat
cos i will be reminded of the 1st 'sorry' tt i told her after it
' 'sorry' itself is juz an empty word which everybody can say'

the past year without her had lead me back to my old self
the quiet, little courage and boring old self
which i hated it

我真的很对不起你，我的朋友！