In the morning, while traveling into the campus in 179, there are loads of trees with flowers just fallen off. These flowers formed a bed of pinks or whites just below the trees. It is such a beautiful scene.

But when i was traveling back via the same route in the evening, all these scenery had gone. All the flowers had withered and turned brown. Just between the gap of 10 hours at most, those beautiful scenery had turned somewhat ugly.

Sometimes I do wonder, does friendship/relationship acts the same way as these flowers? When the person is holding tightly to the friendship/relationship, it just like when the flowers are still blooming on the plant. When the friendship/relationship is loosen, it is just like flowers just fallen from the trees, when everything is still dreamy and nice. When situation had turned sour and ugly in this 'loosen' friendship/relationship, turning those beautiful flowers into ugly withered flowers...

I have no idea why but it seems like I had once again had the feeling of being an outsider inside the cliques... I had no idea why ZZ had to avoid mentioning about SH in front of me but went to JL to talk about it. He had to also hide some corner, far from me, to talk to her in the phone. As if I would explode when I know about it. Sometimes I think he do not had a heart in this now clique in school, but in somewhere else. When he is away from the group, he is so different from when he is 'held' in the group.

What I thought to be my closest (platonic) friend in the campus, is he truthfully even my friend? Now?