i dunno how shld i react or how shld i feel... maybe soneone can come n enlighten me... after a series of events, n with the help of frens ard, i tot everything is gg to be fine... the thing is, i really tot everything went back to the time where we were really close at some point of time...

but then, i realise tt tt wasnt the case... juz by a day out with a grp of frens... the whole day ppl keep asking me when is he reaching, but i hav no answers. i still rmb the only sentence tt he directed to me, it is when all of them gg up a taxi, ' msg when reach home'. the whole damn night, tt was the only short sentence. i think everybody tt went there had spoken at least 10 times more then tt, even those tt i rarely spoke in sch...

juz drop by into facebook n saw a set of photos tt makes me feel down n mixed up. its SH's bday, i shld be happy when i saw their photos... for someone tt were asked to look n c wat kind of present to buy for her when we went shopping... but were nt asked to join during the celebration when someone jolly well know tt no matter wat, if im free, n im free, i will go if im asked... wat's more hurting is to c a grp of my frens celebrating with her w/o me in it. n they freaking post them in facebook...

i had kept thinking y im like trying to avoid coming online these days... but i think i know y now... im trying to keep a gd image of these 'frens' by avoiding... cos none of these frens, particularly, fren, did nt come to chat with me everytime i come online, n facebook always shows me photos tt i really hate to c, cos im left out...

feeling really dumb, but sometimes, its better to be an ostrich...