i hate the number 3. i juz hate it. ever since my teenage starts, whenever i found myself in grps of 3, i feel like an outsider. i tot things will be over when i came to uni as im staying in grps of 4. but somehow, maybe god or dad is playing tricks with me, the grps of 4 all turned to grps of 3. n im in this stupid shyt feeling again. i hate this feeling, this setting. im always juz a fren who is sharing all the goods but none of the bads. all im asking is juz giving me an opportunity to care for, to close up the gap. i hav no idea y u hav to hide watever u r hiding frm me but nt him. maybe, it is juz the simple fact tt im the only girl in the grp.

i shldnt be feeling like this right now. i wanted a whole new beginning, to feel happier, nt this... i fared a 'D' for ranting stupid things...