i know i shldnt be saying this at this pt of time... im kinda tired of uni... i tot i know well enuf, but actually, there r realli lotsa things i didnt know, hidden...

im nt tired due to the constant fight academically but due to the constant fight to the unknown thinkings, feelings n hidden meaning of other ppl's actions... u juz wun know y ppl do this or do tt... n its kinda sick... nobody treats frenship as wat it meant to be but rather more of a tool, be it companionship or to get better academically... the way of thinking is juz distorted...

ppl who i tot i knew them aint acting as the way i tot they will or rather, acting in a way totally opposite of wat they had portray to me when we 1st met. its really kind of scary to me. maybe everything can be blamed on the stupid cohort environment n the no. of competitive ppl multiply each sem as if they r ameba. for a person who r layback in practice like me, it pretty scary to c each n everyone ard me to start doing exam papers for midterms n ppl starting to go consult prof mysteriously n unknowingly.

i personally thinks tt the edu system has led students to perceive wrongly n think tt it is the grades tt matters more compared to the process of learning... a thinking tt is wrong but it is so twisted tt it becomes a norm n eventually ppl thinks tt it is right...

i cant say im free of it as im oso a victim in this kind of setup. but sometimes, i really doubting myself whether this is the uni life i shld be having... =S

on the endnote, i seriously feel tt it will be much better to stay in poly for 5 yrs n 2 yrs in uni... =P life is so much enjoyable even though there r lotsa ups n downs... =D