I accidentally clicked the places tab of fb n I saw tt he once log in at S's hall reading room. N my heart skipped a few beats. I think fb is trying it's best to ask n help me to let go. It's sth tt is so real tt I cannot avoid for life I think, even though I wished I can avoid all these by turning myself blind. But I just can't. Can't be cos I wanna avoid him, I have to forgo the rest of the frens who had been supporting me. I really wished I could stand up soon n fast, but I also know tt some wounds have to let them heal slowly so tt those wounds wouldn't burst out raw. I will take my time slowly, n adapt them. I dun want to sprout another feeling to him again. Especially when the 2 of them r really tgt. I dun wanna hurt any of them as both of them will always remain as special frens to me...

I realize another stupidity of me... Cos he does housework at home, in order to be comparable, unknowingly, I started to do housework every now n then too... The ultimate 傻人...