went out with S and 照射镜 today after lab... everything went well n was actually quite happy and enjoying it... Until the pt when they invited me to celebrate 照射镜's bday on the 18 n told me tt he will be there too... From then on, I was downrigt moody... Moody nt cos I'm nt enjoying myself but cos I'm pondering deeply on whether to go or nt to go... Or I shld say, I'm in dilemma... I really really wished to go but yet I'm afraid tt I will be unhappy during the celebration n may affect 照射镜's bday mood... They gave me an alternative though... To have another celebration some other time with another fren... I've no idea wat to do... I think no matter wat... The 18 will be a day tt I foresee as a curb... Even if I didn't go, I think I will 胡思乱想 ba... Maybe I shld not go but find some activities to distract myself on tt day... Anybody wanna hav dinner with me tt night?

Btw, he had approached me n started to talk... But everything is still abt sch work... But I think tts a start of us breaking the wall slowly...

I dunno whether did I did the wrong thing today but I think wats done is alr done... I had split the 2 expts among me n another fren. I told him abt it but he seems to be unhappy abt it... But the thing is, the splitting of work was suggested by tt fren... I'm just flowing the flow... Which is wat I always do for lab... After tt, although we are doing the same expts, we were in sort of different grps even though we were side by side... He hanging ard with those ppl who r with him last wk, n I'm with my own grp of ppl doing the same expt for a period of time... 各自做各自的... Sometimes i consider lucky to hav frens ard who normally r only 配角s in my life. But I can fall back to them when I need to be with someone different... To escape from watever things or ppl...