Finally lab is over... I would had stayed in the lab until he is done with his expt... But I decided to go off earlier this time... Swopped my fumehood with 老人 today cos he needs the nitrogen line. Felt really weird by the cold shoulders he gave me. I dunno what is the cause of it. N he is really avoiding me... Why? I dun understand... Maybe I just need time to adapt...

Anyway, he still didn't 表态 anything with regards to the letter... Haiz... Dunno wats really happening... Frustrated abt it, sianz abt it, worried abt it...

Noticed tt he is more ill today than yesterday, but yet I can't bring myself to ask him to take good care of himself. Should I do tt? I keep asking myself...

Starting to get tired of this life, everyday after sch, straight away go home... To avoid him, to...

Just keep reminding myself tt I have to adapt to it... No excuses...