i felt really guilty... really guilty... although i know she dun want me to feel tt way...maybe tts y she wun tell us abt it...

照射镜's grandpa passed away w/o her having the last chance of meeting. cos she was with me n S enjoying (last tues, as blogged). n she didnt even tell us abt it... n 装若无其事, contd to reply my msgs juz like any normal day... when i knew it last night, 我很心疼她，为何她每次都要逞强. everything juz keep it to herself n nt let us know... afraid tt we r worried, but now, knowing after so many days, frm a 3rd person, aint we even more worried abt her? n now, she doesnt reply to our msgs, im even more worried... n guilt corroding in...

guilty tt i didnt sent her home tt day...
guilty tt i wasnt there for her when she needs it...
guilty tt i asked her out tt day...
guilty tt she still mind my feelings even though she is feeling bad herself...

feeling guilty...