Suddenly felt tt I had a missing piece of puzzle... N with this piece, I'll be able to understand everything... Understand the logic behind his actions... But the thing is, the most direct way to obtain this piece is to obtain from him... Tt means gg back toking to him... As I've said, I'm not ready for it... This piece will remain missing I guessed... Until I'm able pluck up the courage to face him or any kind soul who knows tt wanna fill me in...