I'm happy today... Nth special happened actually except tt I sent a msg tt had a meaning to me...

These few days I had been thinking of sending him a msg n ask if we still can be frens... After interacting with some ppl, having adverse responses, I sent out the msg... It just felt amazing after knowing tt I had done it, even though I was scared at the start. It felt tt it is a load off n I really felt happy even though I had nt received his reply. At least I've tried to salvage back our friendship. Some ppl might think it is a silly move but to me, it is a move tt I had subconsciously wanted ever since the 1st day I decided to avoid him. He is a special fren, w/o him, my uni life might be just a blank. He is a special fren, cos he is one of the few tt I could really pour out to when I'm down.

I guessed sending the msg had another meaning to me. If he had replied n said yes, we'll just be frens, n hopefully the hidden barrier in between me n S, which i felt it building up during the hols, will break. If he didn't, just like wat sotong mentioned last night when I told her, it will serve as a closure between the 2 of us, be it friendship or anything...

At least I had tried... 我放了我自己了，希望他也能... =D