Due to the closeness of the dates, we had our bday celebration tgt with the frens we know. From the meetup, found out tt the 2 of us will be taking different mods for the last sem tt we r staying in sch, even the cores. I felt relieved hearing tt but at the same time worrying. Relieved cos I dun hav to worry abt the weird atmosphere we always had after the incident when we meet. But at the same time, worried cos we dun hav forced conditions like before to slowly repair our relationship, which might marks the end of our friendship if neither of us took any steps forward. Its 2 opposite feeling towards a piece of info... Maybe I'm contradicting myself too...

At times like these, I really had to admit tt there IS a disparity between the 2 genders no matter how much we choose to deny. It seems easier for guys to treat girls who 'rejected' them as frens n a whole lot harder the other way. My life gets back to norm but the norm is w/o him. Its as if I've never stepped into uni. I think, at the end of the day, what I really got is the unexpected catch of sotongs in Living with Maths. Other than that, sad to say, I tot tt i had a catch in CBC, but the net somehow had a hole n let the catch swam off.

Things r really not the same anymore. This problem of ours is no long a trivial matter tt it used to be. Its not something tt we can choose to forget but yet if we dun do tt, we will just be a pair of 陌生人 with some history. I'm sick of telling myself to do something the next time we meet, but yet do not hav the courage to do it when we met. All I want is just to get the friendship back but I hav no courage to do so. Sometimes, I really hope he is able to hav a try to patch it n not hide from me everytime we see each other. =S