不知不觉，以十月了，事已过了将近八个月了。真的很快，尤其是近几个月，忙着FYP, 忙着课业和其他零零碎碎的事情。开始渐渐的遗忘他，遗忘那伤心的回忆，从新调整了重心，现在大致上过得越来越好了。唯一的遗憾，就只是他还没有回我在开学前传给他的那则简讯。现在想想，不一定是件坏事，至少可以让我把心情调整好。但是，我还是会希望，他有一天会回我简讯，当回普通朋友。

在这同时，我觉得我好像渐渐的疏远S，而且是内心里的那种。虽然我们和好了，也每一段时间就碰一次面，但我好像越来越怕跟她单独相处，也不会像要跟她聊太多。Maybe I'm not as prepared as I thought I'll be to accept back her. 我真的很想跟她做回好朋友，但每一次碰面，看到她传简讯，会想是不是传给他。每次都会伤心散场。我知道是我自己的问题，但每一次我都跟自己将不可以这样，同样的事还发生了。I'm seriously doubting myself whether I had been seeing her as a friend. For all I know now, I doubt that I'll be very close to her, at least for the time being. It seems that I had built yet another barrier between me and her, and it takes time to tear down if it's even possible.